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It starts with a pain, not a definitive one—just this nagging ache running down your left arm.  You’ve heard that this is one of the signs of a heart attack but you’re too young for such things.  You begin to feel a tightness spreading through your chest and the pain in your arm begins to increase.

“Man, I feel weird,” you think as you ease yourself down on the couch, rubbing your left arm and clenching and unclenching your fist.  You think, “Maybe I should call someone,” but you reason that it would be so embarrassing when it goes away and you have to explain you were scared.

Then, it hits.

 “The end of your life is staring you back in the eyes, up close—eyeball to eyeball.”

Your jaw begins to feel a pain like your teeth are hurting.  The pain increases.

“This can’t be real!” you think as the pain overwhelms you and a descending darkness, like the fade at the end of a movie, blurs and coats your vision like a pull down shade.  You can’t move now and the pain is unbearable.  You know.  You just know.

“ It’s impossible.  This can’t happen to me!”

But, there it is.  It’s fact.  You are dying.

In that moment, during the time after you sit down on the couch, the realization that you may be dying hits you right in the reality.

“What’s going to happen to me if I die?”  Your mind screams as the terror mounts and you begin fading into yourself and a numbing coldness starts moving from your extremities towards your middle, toward your heart.  Then—you’re gone.

Where did you go?

Where will you wake up?

What are you now?

These and other questions are answered by the worldview that you hold.  What is the last thought that runs through your mind as death slowly—but inescapably— claims you?

 Let’s run the clock back.

 Like an old VCR tape, you see yourself speeding back second by second into the past to where you were just before the first realization that something drastically wrong was about to play out.  Every thought of the past 15 minutes is as clear and as vivid as anything you have ever experienced in your life.

The past 15 minutes are all that you can think about as you realize what is about to happen.  What are your thoughts now?  Are you thinking about it as you read these words?  You remember laughing with others about,

“Oh well, might as well enjoy life to the max!  We’re not goin’ to ever get out of this world alive!”  Or perhaps you remember thinking,

“Everyone dies, but I don’t want to dwell on such things.  Just live each day to the fullest!”

 Maybe the following invades your memory as you await that first pain of the heart attack you know is coming and that is going to end your life in the next 15 minutes.

“Hey Bill,” your friend asks as you down another beer and slap down another grain-fed steak at the neighborhood, Sunday night cookout.

You love these outings that are held each weekend in the Spring and Summer months.  In fact, you started them 8 years after that Spring when you moved into the neighborhood.

“Let’s run down and get another case after this steak and watch the game!”  He laughs uproariously.  “ Only the good die young and we be bad to da bone!”

“Ok,” you belch—scarf down the last bite—and drain one beer and reach for another, “Let’s go!”

 

  • What is your worldview about death?
  •  Are you afraid of dying?
  •  Do you think about it?
  •  Do your hide from the realities of it? 
  • Are you comfortable with it?
  • Are you aware of what others think about it? 
  • How about your friends?
  • Your fellow employees where you work?
  • Then there’s your spouse and kids?
  • What are you teaching your kids about death?

 

What do you fear, what you think about, what do you hide from, how how can you become comfortable with death, what do you discuss with others, teach your kids?  It all depends upon how you view the world around you. Please be thinking on the above questions.

 In the next post, we will begin to consider the major world views mentioned in the post, How To See Out Of The Window.

The first worldview we will investigate is that of human secularism.  I look forward to coming alongside you as we investigate this prevalent, 21st century worldview.

Until then!

Zach

 

Question:  What is your greatest fear and how does it look from your worldview?

How To Ruin God’s Work

Zach —  January 9, 2013 — Leave a comment

Thank you for stopping by to read my humble blog.  I have been working hard to get everything ready for this blog to offer something more than just more words on the internet.  I have a confession to make.  This morning, amid all of the hoopla of wrangling schedules, preparing sermon notes, etc…I had one of those moments of clarity that hits home…

I noticed something this morning. It was barely noticeable at first but as I began to let my mind decelerate and relax – it became more noticeable.

At first, it was akin to that feeling that something is just not quite right. It was something slightly familiar but just out of conscious reach, you know? Like the name of someone from your childhood.

Then it hit. It hit hard. It hit with that heart stopping bolt of adrenaline – flooding through the vascular system – shocking mind, body, and spirit into total focus and anguish. I was lonely!

In my quest to serve my savior, in my desire to reach out to others with His glorious message of truth, I had focused my attention upon the work – losing my focus on He that I was working for!

My first love was being replaced by the duty of my calling. I was focusing my complete attention and effort upon the advertisement rather than the product! I was relishing the sizzle at the expense of savoring the taste of the steak!

This has been a morning of awakening, confession, repentance, and introspection. My re-focus today is upon my priorities with Christ Himself, my personal relationship with Him, with Him being moved back to His rightful position at the top of my spiritual pyramid!

Before I progress any further on this blog, before I write one more post in relation to the planned book that God has called me to write, I first must concentrate upon my relationship Jesus, my savior.  He can’t be second in my desire to perpetuate His good news of the kingdom.  I lost the forest because of so many trees!

I back away for now to seek God’s face.

I humbly ask for your prayers today as I work on my most important of relationships…my Lord and my God!

Bless you.

Question:  Have you ever found yourself wandering through the forest of your faith and duty only to discover that you left your compass behind?